It is finally June. Exam month. After winging it all semester, it is time to start panicking and hit the books. As the temperature gets hotter and the beach becomes more luring, the more us students do not want to study. Summer is just around the corner.
As much as we complain about exams being a waste of time since we are not truly learning by regurgitating whatever our lecturers say on the exam paper, exams are necessary. I believe that since we need to take them, there is no use in complaining and pitying yourself. You need to get it over and done with. By changing your perspective, exams might not be as stressful as you would think.
A personal experience I would like to share on my blog is the horrible month of May 2018. A Levels month. It was not horrible because of the exams themselves or their effect on me but what I did to myself. I somewhat locked myself up in my house for an entire month. I thought that being inside the house, I would get my studying done.
After I finished my exams and summer was waving at me in my face, I felt traumatized. Not traumatized like the soldiers in WW1, but yes, somewhat traumatized. I felt a sense of guilt, of being with my friends and going out. It took a while to accept that I could enjoy myself again.
What I learned was that being inside the house for a month mentally broke me. It broke me to the point where I wanted to start going to the gym but my mind would stop me. It took me a while but I managed to get back to normal. The mind needs fresh air. It is easy to imprison yourself with false reasons. Sometimes, we don’t realize we are doing damage to ourselves. Therefore, when the damage is done, we can only try to move past it, back to normality.
Now that I am to face exams again this month, I know how to tackle my situation. I am certainly not going to let exams get to my head. I felt the need to express what I went through because I bet many people probably go through the same thing. Even though I have eleven exams this month, yes eleven, I am not stressing (although I should be a little bit). People think that not stressing about exams means you have a problem. Personally, I cannot stress anymore about my exams. I used to stress about them back in secondary school but I have come to a point where I cannot take it anymore. There is always a breaking point. Exams do not control my life. Therefore, I believe in doing my best which requires no stress at all.
There needs to balance in all things in life. We need to care of our mental state. We need time for ourselves and not only during exam month but everyday.
In conclusion, I will try to write some posts for my blog throughout June however I am going to focus on my exams. I wish all students like myself the best of luck and to take care of themselves! The mind is a clever thing.